So it’s been a while since I last posted, the build up to March 9th was all I was focusing on. That was supposed to be the day where the next stage started.
Sadly it wasn’t to be. Due to my platelet levels in my blood being low, the surgeon decided against the procedure, it was the most devastating news.
I was in the room at the clinic, waiting to get taken down to theatre. My world, for that moment stopped dead in its tracks.
I along with others had invested so much into that operation taking place, emotionally, physically and mentally. To have that snatched away wasn’t only heartbreaking for me but others too.
I felt like I’d let people down, something that over the years I’d had done plenty of times. Even though I was told it wasn’t my fault. I still, even now feel it is. It’s my body that wasn’t right. And I feel at fault for it.
So there’s been a long process of tests, appointments etc to try and get back on track. Thankfully we have a new date for surgery and that’s July 27th.
I can’t help but feel it’s taken too long but I’m still extremely grateful for this. I’m just ready to get this operation done and start the recovery and move forward with my life.
I’m currently down to 18st 3lbs and I’m feeling great physically. Mentally I’m not that great, I still have daily issues and a lack of motivation but I’m blessed to have the people I do in my life and love them all dearly..
I’m going to be posting a bit more frequently now and it’ll be a varied amount of topics, but I’m feeling it’ll be good for me and I’ll continue with my story in due course..
Speak to you all soon x